Helpless

Have you ever felt that, there is something that you desperately desire, so desperate that you'd gladly die for it, and yet, knowing that even by giving your life, you will never be able to obtain it...

Do you know how that feels? One word: sucks.......

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I've never been particularly excited about something good happening to me, in fact I always feel kinda depressed. Weirdo right? It's not that I don't want anything good to befall me, I still hope for all those stuff like increments, promotions, bonuses, investment returns... it's just that, every time something good happens, there will be a corresponding bad thing to happen soon after that.

I'm just bracing myself for the storm after the rainbow, that's how my life is, and always has been, opposite from the norm I suppose....

I didn't realize...

what I bought... until I got them all spread out on the bed and wrapped in the pillows and bolster...


Imagine hugging that while sleeping...

Finally

I could've cashed out earlier, but I don't see any point of cashing out such a small figure...

Instead I chose to do it in my first anniversary with the blogvertising company...


It's still quite a small amount, but... hey, better than nothing right? At least this'll pay for Tao Cuisine buffet for 2...

Thank you,

Cafeteria

The company where I work in, we have a quite decent cafeteria...


Not to say the most awesome, most spectacular, coolest, bestest best cafeteria in the world, but it's quite cosy to hang around...

The food is reasonably priced too... here's what you get for RM6...


Grill fish and chips, mushroom soup and a scoop of ice cream...

And all internal employees get a meal subsidy of RM2, so the set meal above actually cost me RM4...

I heard from my US counterpart that in their Loveland site, the cafeteria has been closed down long ago, they'd have to bring lunch from home, or eat out...

It's the polar opposite compared to the company across the road... I heard that the US site of their company, the cafeteria sells some really awesome stuff, they even have Starbucks in the cafeteria!

(Btw, Loveland is a town nearby Denver, Colorado... the most exciting thing over there is either the Rocky Mountain National Park or Carmelo Anthony, depending on who you ask...)

Childhood

I didn't realize that it's the school holidays again...


How I miss those times...

I used to scorn when the adults when they say things like "Student life is the best life, you should enjoy it and stop complaining about homeworks" and hit back with things like "You don't know anything about being a student now! I'd prefer working right now!"

It's ironic that I should say the same things that I used to hear to my juniors, and get back the same retort; and he/she would pass that message down and get the same retort as well...

Let me breakdown my journey from kindie to working adult...

Kindie : Heaven... go to school to play, eat and sleep...

Primary School : Easy, basically I just do what the teacher teaches, and aced the classes without difficulty...

Secondary School : It's basically the same as primary school, but the subjects more advanced and deeper; the struggle really begins at Form 4, mainly not because of the subjects too tough, but because the teachers are not competent enough to teach at this level (yeah that's the level of teachers in our beloved 1Malaysia nowadays). Here's where places like Pusat Tuisyen Kasturi comes into perspective... not too difficult though...

College : At first glance, it's heaven once again. No homework to pass up every day, just the mid term test, assignments and final exams. You skip lectures and the lecturers don't give a fuck about it at all (most of them). I spent more of my fresh college years in Brewball Pool Club than in lecture halls. Then come the semester finals, and you realize the heaven is actually hell. You skip class, you don't know how to do the exams, you're screwed. And now, no more Kasturi to save the day, you're on your own...

LJMU : Well, this 3 months UK stint is really heaven lah... skip class, go Scotland tour, go Old Trafford, go to Birmingham Newcastle Blackpool, study last minute still pass the exams... And to top it up, after the course ended, still get to go to London Europe and Dubai...

Working : You earn your own income, you become independent from your dad, you can buy whatever you want and nobody's gonna give a shit on you. Well, that was the idea more or less... until the letter from PTPTN, the phone call from Kojadi, the petrol bill, the tolls, car service; and then when in Penang: rental, trip to go back KL once in a while etc... suddenly you realize there's nothing left of your paycheck, and you cannot actually buy whatever you want. In college, assignments come once a semester, if you fail you just re-sit and repeat the subject; now, everyday is assignments and everyday is due date, EVERYDAY IS HELL until you retire...

If you ask me to compare student life and working life... the answer is straightforward:

THERE'S NO COMPARISON